Hi hi!

Okay, so this is just gonna be random thoughts I have had throughout the week. Okay, so, don't you just love it when God gives you little pick me ups sometimes? Like, some-days I will just be having an awful day or I'm just really tired or whatever and I will just be like checking my email or going through my journals and I'll just find something cool! Like if I check my mail and I will get a message from one of besties and they say something encouraging or say like "I've been praying for you", which has a couple times now. :-) Or I go through my journal like I said and I will find a drawing or a diary entry which can at times make a good "talk to yourself" conversation starter! Lol. Like I did something stupid or drew something totally awful that at the time was great, but now you're like "YOU LOATHSOME CREATURE!!!" Hahaha. Speaking of that phrase, I used it last night to describe a picture I drew of my best friend when I was 12 that I was really proud of but when I saw it I was like, "how detestful!" Okay I'm thinking I made up that word because it says it was spelled wrong so I used the spell check and there was no replacement so I'm like, okayyy. Lol So anyways, when I said "you loathsome creature", my mom started laughing and was like "You read too much". And I was thinking "Sorry?". I don't know, I'm nerdy that way. :-) So, I don't know about you but I have seriously been thinking alot about college lately. Like, kids my age would think something like this: You worry too much! Come on and chillax with me at so and so's party and maybe we'll finally get you a date. I'm thinking, whoa... Lol Why do people think this way? It's weird! To me, you're just stupid and lazy if you think like that. And no I'm not afraid to tell that to people who really are like that! Honestly my mom said that people usually don't think about college till their Senior year and then they get that "kick in the butt" to be serious about life, ya know? I got that "kick in the butt" early this year before I started high school. Thank the Lord Almighty! Lol Okay, so I'm listening to Love Is Not A Fight from the movie Fireproof right now. For some odd reason it is hitting home hard! Weird... Wonder why? Creepy. Hahaha... (awkward laugh) :-P Oh my word I just saw this advertisement and these kids in school were say the Pledge of Allegiance but it was so distorted! Saying stuff about the chinese government and other stuff about money and I was like: o_O (gosh I've always wanted to use that emoticon!) It was WEIRD. Okay, so, funny happening of today, my mom is going through our clothes so she knows what we need for winter right? And when I was little (specifically age 12), I admitt I had a crush on my friend's older brother... Gosh this is embarrassing. And, well, I used to foolishly as it is write his name on random objects or in journals, etc. And I didn't like it when my mom would come through my room cause I was afraid she would see and tease me. (gosh I hate talking about this!) And, so anyways my mom came up to me and said "I'm going into your ROOM." And I was like, "Okayyy what do you need?" And I found out she was gonna go through our clothes, so that was cool with me. But the thing she says next really made me feel, just really really embarrassed cause I knew why she was saying this: "I'm gonna find out who your BOYFRIEND is!!!" I looked at her like, "You said what?" Cause I do NOT have a boyfriend and won't have one any time soon, so, yeah. I mean, you should've seen my face! Lol Okay, so is it shameful to be listening to Christmas in OCTOBER?! Because honestly right now I'm listening Last Christmas by Britt Nicole, well, covered by her anyways. And before that Christmas Together by Jamie Grace. So, yeahhh. 

Byeee! Lol